Right after people stopping to ask me, why I am still at work … I love people suggesting how to fall asleep.
So I’m at work — overtime as usual, but the good news is I don’t have a lot else going on right now — and someone stops by, like they do all day every day to talk. As the day goes on, they stop more frequently.
“What are you still doing here?”
It takes a lot of restraint to not say, “Really? Cause there’s a solid chance I’d be done and home right now, if you stopped talking to me.”
I really do love my job, I just have to start loving it in smaller amounts because it is affecting my ability to sleep — working 10 to 12 hour day, come work and work from blackberry, lay in bed at night and think about what I still need to do.
“Just push everything from your mind then you’ll fall asleep.”
This is what people keep telling me.
“Of course, nearly four weeks of steady insomnia and that’s all that I needed to do. Thanks for pointing that out.”
I guess that’s how I can tell I’m growing up — I never say any of this out loud. I just smile. Actually at this point I think the smile is permanently screwed into place, I don’t have the energy for much other facial expression.
Alright, I’m heading to bed to lay awake, stare at the ceiling and try to figure out where my life went a little off the rails.
Goodnight.
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