I’ve mentioned my commitment issues before. Those issues are why things are moving really slow with this amazing guy I’m dating.
It’s funny because we are around each other all the time, I really like him, but I still struggle with letting him care for me or having any discussion about us/relationship/talking to others. It’s the strangest thing … mostly I want to scream it from the rooftop, but yet when I open my mouth nothing comes out.
I am getting a crash course in what it means to have someone (I mean aside from your parents) really care for you. The other day he wasn’t sleeping well, so I sent him home in the middle of the night. I needed to sleep and so did he, so I gave him that opportunity.
This meant I was up late, which then meant that I didn’t get enough sleep, which lead me to being really, really behind in the morning. He sent a text in the morning, which I saw, but not really and when he called I ignored it because I was running out of the house.
I checked my phone again from work. And let him know I was fine by text.
He confessed to being at house, having driven over to make sure I was okay, because he was worried that I was still sleeping or something.
This was a lot to absorb. On one hand, I thought it was so sweet and kind, on the other I was frustrated at his concern, I’ve been looking after me for a decade now. This is being in a relationship. It’s good, but still requires some getting used to, it’s not just about me anymore.
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